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released July 15, 2017

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Track Name: Last of Me
Reach out, grasp nothing but air
Can’t you see there’s nobody here?
Watch out, you’re on your final run
And I’m already long gone

I’m standing before you
Completely see-through
You’ve drawn the outline
Now look at me

I’m a broken frame
I’m just fun and games
I’ll keep my poker face
And won’t leave a trace

You can keep the last of me
I don’t care
I am obsolete
You have seen the last of me
Wring my neck
I won’t feel a thing

Reverb, resound, and repeat
Phase out my heart
And you will see
Slam shut, eyes blank, and repeat
I will show you what I can be

Breathe in, don’t let it out
Tread too far and you’re out of bounds
My lungs are toxic now
Don’t get close or you will drown

I’m standing before you
Completely see-through
You’ve drawn the outline
Now look at me

I’m a broken frame
I’m just fun and games
I’ll keep my poker face
And won’t leave a trace

You can keep the last of me
I don’t care
I am obsolete
You have seen the last of me
Wring my neck
I won’t feel a thing

Reverb, resound, and repeat
Phase out my heart
And you will see
Slam shut, eyes blank, and repeat
I will show you what I can be

You can keep the last of me
I don’t care
I am obsolete
You have seen the last of me
Wring my neck
I won’t feel a thing

Reverb, resound, and repeat
Phase out my heart
And you will see
Slam shut, eyes blank, and repeat
I will show you what I can be

I am more than what you can see
Track Name: Copycat
Say "Hello,
"Who are you?"
And we'll start from scratch again
"Gotta go
"Talk to you soon!"
Day by day, I'm fading away

We get along just fine
I say everything you like to hear
"It's funny how much I
Feel like I'm looking in a mirror"

I can't remember
Who I am
Everything's a blur
Take me over

I'll become what you like
This is what you've wanted, right?
Sacrifice all I know
I will teach myself to let go

Whoa...
Copy that copycat

Say "Hello,
"What's up with you?"
I'm starting to talk like you do
Here we go
I'll be gone soon
Day by day, everything has changed

We've grown a part this time
I can't figure out the reason why
"It's funny how much I'd
kinda like to see you cry"

I can't remember
Who I am
Everything's a blur
Take me over

I've become what you like
I am what you've wanted, right!?
Sacrificed all I've known
I have taught myself to let go

Whoa...
Copy that copycat
Track Name: CircusP & Eyeris(Creep-P) - Karma
I've lost my mind
The skies are crashing around me
I'm left behind
Smoke obscures all that I can see

You lead me down a dark path
But I'm who you blame for the aftermath
You're screaming out

You've broken me down and I
Am left alone here to cry
Someone, can someone
Please, someone save me now

You've charred my heart into ash
I've become numb to the pain
You've driven us both to crash
And escape without a scratch

Now you've used up all your luck
It's time to get what you deserve
I'm holding out for karma
I'm holding out to watch you burn

Shoot me down
Of course, I'm the sinful one here
But now I've found
A reason to feel no fear

You lead me down a dark path
But I'm who you blame for the aftermath
We're screaming out

You've broken me down and I
Am left alone here to cry
Someone, can someone
Please, someone end this now

I'm not usually the type
To hold a grudge
But you've affected me
And now
I'm nothing but rage

Give what you take
Take what you give
What you've done to me
I will not forgive
Track Name: How to Pretend
Breathe in, Breathe now
You have to calm down
Let me show you somewhere we could hide
We can stay in here until sunrise

Moving forward
Step by step, once more
Follow my instructions, You'll be fine
This will only hurt for a short time

With promises of freedom
I would never lie to you
Only speaking the way you do too
How great that it must be
To walk outside and see
Others just like you
And not--

"I am not like you
I can't do all that you do
No matter how desperately I want to"

When you look into my eyes, you see
A mirage of something trustworthy
I'm not your enemy, no more anxiety
Though, you're right to be wary
'Cause I know how to pretend
HOW TO PRETEND

Breathe in, breathe out
I'm lost in here now
and of course I know that
There's no way, There's no way I can turn back

I'm left in the dark to play my part
Follow every lie you feed me
As they lead to more and more agony

Are we on the same team after all this time?
Are we really feeling a pain of the same kind?
Watching from the outside, You
Can't see all the things I do
You're a circus MONSTER and now's your cue

"You were right
When you said that 'we're not the same'
because unlike you
I can feel pain"

When I look into your eyes, I see
A facade, you are not trustworthy
You are my enemy, faking your empathy
I was right to be wary
When you know how to pretend
HOW TO PRETEND

When you look into my eyes, you see
A mirage of something trustworthy
I'm not your enemy, no more anxiety
Though, you're right to be wary
'Cause I know...
You're no good at pretending

Come Dance and we'll be prismatic
(I'm not falling for all your tricks)
Let's put on a show before the curtain falls
(Before the curtain falls I won't take a bow)
It's time, our finale's now
(This mangled freak show is where we end it all)
is where we start it all
Track Name: Different Seas
To your side of the world
It happened in an instant
How could you have foreseen
my destructive intent

So call me rash
I didn't even give you a chance
My spontaneity was something
you said you loved in me

We're sailing towards different seas
And you're faster than I ever could be
You've set your sights on something
something that doesn't include me

So prepare for war
I'm charging at you full force

We're sailing towards different seas
So I'll be the first to scream

From my side of the world
You were already gone
Gradually building up
to a farewell song

I let it last
And gave it everything I had
But tenacity was something
You couldn't see in me

We're sailing towards different seas
And you're faster than I ever could be
You've set your sights on something
something that doesn't include me

So prepare for war
I'm charging at you full force

We're sailing towards different seas
So I'll be the one to leave
leave
Cut you out with no mercy
see
You're better off without me
Track Name: Déjà Vu
Miku:
Bring on the chill rain
And we'll go back in time
Everything's the same
We've fallen into place

Why does this keep happening
Crashing down with the lightning
Smash my heart into pieces and sing

These moments fall apart
We've walked this path before
You've said your lines, now it's
Time to play my role once more

And we'll restart
The cycle again
And we'll restart
Breaking each other again

We're trapped in here
We're trapped in here for good

I'm lost in here
I'm lost in here with you
Together, through and through

Luka:
Bring on the excuses
Tell me that I deserve this
Don't let me open my mouth
Don't stop the rain from pouring down

So why does this keep on happening
We're crashing down with the lightning
You smash our hearts into pieces and then sing

These moments are your fault
I'm losing a rigged battle
And you restart the cycle
And you restart breaking me again

We're trapped in here
We're trapped in here for good

I'm lost in here
I'm lost in here with you
Together, through and through

Miku:
These moments fall apart
We've walked this path before
You've said your lines, now it's
Time to play my role once more

And we'll restart
The cycle again
And we'll restart
Breaking each other again

Both:
We're trapped in here
We're trapped in here for good

I'm lost in here
I'm lost in here with you
Together, through and through
Track Name: 1/4
Watch my heart beat out of my chest
We've done something wrong
Was it you?
Or am I the one here taking the blame?

Feel my throat sink deeper and deeper, I'm gasping for air
Is it me?
Or are you not feeling this, feeling this,
feeling the same?

(Oh-Ooh-Whoa-Oh-Oh)x2
I've done everything
perfect to instruction
(Oh-Ooh-Whoa-Oh-Oh)x2
Tell me you're trying
Tell me I'm lying
(Oh-Ooh-Whoa-Oh-Oh)x2
I've done everything
perfect for destruction
(Oh-Ooh-Whoa-Oh-Oh)x2
I can't be alone with this feeling

Am I the only one
That's holding on for far too long?
Was it all just a dream?
Am I wrong?
Was there no 'You and Me'?

Scream and call me hopeless
Shout out that you have nothing left
Something, Just say anything
Don't end this with words left unsaid

(Ooh)

Don't you hear me crying out for you?
As you turn away
Is it true?
Or are you not feeling this, feeling this,
feeling the same?

(Oh-Ooh-Whoa-Oh-Oh)x2
I've done everything
perfect to instruction
(Oh-Ooh-Whoa-Oh-Oh)x2
Tell me you're kidding
It's just the beginning
(Oh-Ooh-Whoa-Oh-Oh)x2
I've done everything
perfect for destruction
(Oh-Ooh-Whoa-Oh-Oh)x2
I can't be alone in my grieving

Am I the only one
That's holding on for far too long?
Was it all just a dream?
Am I wrong?
Was there no 'You and Me'?

Scream and call me worthless
Shout out that you have nothing left
Something, Just say anything
I can't push on with emptiness

[Glitchy Vocal Break]

Am I the only one
That can't feel anything at all?
(All) the guilt and all the lies
All the times I gave it my best try

I'll be real, I am tired
I remember now, All your fire
And all the things that you put me through
Tore my heart into...

Was I supposed to just be okay
With everything that you did!?
I was broken, I was hurting
But I'm meant to forgive?

You cut me to pieces
It's your fault I'm a complete wreck
And I guess I didn't matter to you
The worst part? I always knew

So here's my final "Fxxk You"
Track Name: CircusP & nostraightanswer - Patches
So I've come this far
Gliding through the stars
But no one ever said that this would phase me

And I'm quite alarmed
I didn't feel so harmed
Until the day it struck me down ruthlessly

Could it be that I
Have never been just quite
satisfied, inside?

Could it be that I
Have never realized
what's been on my mind?

Oh, I can tell you I will fight it
Never thought I'd need to right it
But maybe that's wrong of me

If maybe you won't mind it,
and you're willing to provide it,
will you have my back for me?

Ten thousand scars
with lies, broken hearts,
they cry to the stars,
wishing they were complete

With time they will know
this truth to be told,
that no one is whole
and we're always changing

It's fine to be lost
It comes at no cost
Whatever you do
it'll be the right thing

So don't be afraid
Just play your charades
When you feel okay,
the whole world is waiting.

I should take some time
To try and redefine
The way I see myself, the things I'm changing

Maybe one day soon
I will sing this tune
To remind myself that life keeps cycling

I can tell you I will get through
The pressure that's inside, too
And as far as I can see

I know I'll be stronger
I know I'll be brighter
And one day I'll take the lead

Ten thousand scars
with lies, broken hearts,
they cry to the stars,
wishing they were complete

With time they will know
this truth to be told,
that no one is whole
and we're always changing

It's fine to be lost
It comes at no cost
Whatever you do
it'll be the right thing

So don't be afraid
You'll be okay
Track Name: Fair Game
Your poison rushes through my veins, yeah
You've warped me, made me feel I'm insane

But it's my fault
You did nothing wrong
Why do I keep hurting you?
You won't let me go
You'd be miserable
Cloud my vision from the truth

The only way for me to escape
is to go down in flames

Come on then
draw your guns and take aim
I'm ready to begin
come on then
the first shot's a fair game
let's see who will win

Whoa
I'll take you down
Whoa
It's all over now

You've killed me, crushed me
I wasn't sentient anymore
A pawn to mess with, do as you wish
Screams aloud and declares war

You said it's my fault, right?
You've done nothing wrong, RIGHT?
Throw out excuses for everything
But now I see
Your hold on me
Keep on playing pretend
And we'll see how this ends

We will never go back
I can never go back

Come on then
draw your guns and take aim
I'm ready to begin
come on then
the first shot's a fair game
let's see who will win

Whoa
I'll take you down
Whoa
It's all over now

The only option left for someone like you
is to run
But I'm not going to give you that opportunity
so tell me
how does it feel?
to finally be
one
on
one

You twisted my mind
and made me believe
that you were
good
But now I've changed
and I can see
that there's no
good
in you at all

Come on then
draw your guns and take aim
I'm ready to begin
come on then
the first shot's a fair game
let's see who will win

Whoa
I'll take you down
Whoa
It's all over now
Track Name: Castaway
Show me where to go
Teach me what to say
Push me into the mold that
You think is safe
Don't leave me alone
Or I'll lose my way
'Cause to you
Nothing about me is OK

I'm losing, I'm falling
Reach out, grasp for my hand
Pull me back to dry land
I'm freezing, I'm bleeding
Try to stitch and patch me up
Looks like we're out of luck

Drifting off into the darkest depths
Pulling me down until there's nothing left
Open my eyes for shimmering lights
I won't put up a fight
To say 'Good-Bye'

Watch out, man overboard
Hurry and see the tragedy of me
What are you waiting for?
Come flock to see
The scene of my fatality

I'm sinking down to the sea
I've become a casualty

All the warning signs say
"I told you so"
But Mayday, Mayday
who could've known?
Crying out my shouts
Fall upon deaf ears
Preaching to me that
There's nothing to fear

Come with me, Fall in sync
Reach out, grasp for my hand
Rush into the deep end
I can't be what you need
Try to stitch and patch me up
It seems we're out of luck

Drifting off into the darkest depths
Pulling me down until there's nothing left
Open my eyes for shimmering lights
I won't put up a fight
To say 'Good-Bye'

Watch out, man overboard
Hurry and see the tragedy of me
What are you waiting for?
Come flock to see
The scene of my fatality

I'm sinking down to the sea
I've become a casualty

Drifting off into the darkest depths
Pulling me down until there's nothing left
Open my eyes for shimmering lights
I won't put up a fight
This is 'Good-Bye'

Watch out, man overboard
Hurry and see the tragedy of me
What are you waiting for?
Come flock to see
The scene of my fatality
Find me
Let me breathe in the sea
Oh god
I've become a casualty
Track Name: Poltergeist
Broken mirrors and shattered hearts
I can see you
But can you see me too?
Walk along the reflecting shards
When it's over
I'll take you lower

But higher and higher we go
Step by step looking down, feel the vertigo
With fragments of odd memories,
What sights do you believe?

Living in fantasy, in apathy, isn't the cure
You're out of time
Try to keep holding on, before you're gone
It all will be over, so cry and cry

(Ooh-Whoa-Ooh-Oh-Whoa-Oh)x2
Every step you think you take
Reveals new ways to break
(Ooh-Whoa-Ooh-Oh-Whoa-Oh)x2
Don't you trust your eyes
It's just a poltergeist

Wilted roses and trampled dreams
Breathing in and out
Make sure you don't lose count
Stitching thread to mend the seams
In a feeling of absolutely nothing

But further in fervor we go
Voices in dissonance call from the radio
Searching through the scattered debris
What visions do you seek?

Living in fantasy, in apathy, isn't the cure
You're out of time
Try to keep holding on, before you're gone
It all will be over, so cry and cry

(Ooh-Whoa-Ooh-Oh-Whoa-Oh)x2
Every step you think you take
Reveals new ways to break
(Ooh-Whoa-Ooh-Oh-Whoa-Oh)x2
Don't you trust your eyes
It's just a poltergeist

Living in agony, in tragedy is like a curse
Brought upon yourself
'Cuz as you're calling out and falling down
You can't be recovered, and it hurts like hell

(Oh, I'm a poltergeist)x2
There's no point in turning back
When you've lost all you had
(Oh, I'm a poltergeist)x2
Have you realized
I'm your poltergeist?
Track Name: Fade
They say I don't belong here
You're staring me down
I pray that I'll disappear
But I don't hear any sound

Erase me from your mind I'll just be a memory
And we'll be broken hearted like how it should be

Reach out and don't grab the wrong hand
I am waiting

Rip me to shreds, tear my heart out
I am toxic, I'm a fallout
Say your farewells and cut me out
Without a doubt, I'm the monster now
Ooh-Whoa-oh-oh Oh
Ooh-Whoa-oh-oh Oh
Ooh-Whoa-oh-oh I'm falling to the ground
Rip me to shreds, tear my heart out
I'll fade away into the crowd

Battle ready for combat
Tears stream down my face
You say I'm holding you back
And with time I'll be replaced

Erase me from your mind I'll just be a memory
And we'll be broken hearted like how it should be

Hold tight. I'll be fine, that I know.
Just don't Let go.

Rip me to shreds, tear my heart out
I am toxic, I'm a fallout
Say your farewells and cut me out
Without a doubt, I'm the monster now
Ooh-Whoa-oh-oh Oh
Ooh-Whoa-oh-oh Oh
Ooh-Whoa-oh-oh I'm falling to the ground
Rip me to shreds, tear my heart out
I'll fade away into the crowd

The curtains are drawn
To open old wounds
It's our finale
Come not a moment too soon
So just say your lines
I know you'll hate mine
It's not the first time
so I know that we'll be fine

Rip me to shreds, tear my heart out
I am toxic, I'm a fallout
Say your farewells and cut me out
Without a doubt, I'm the monster now

Rip me to shreds, tear my heart out
I am toxic, I'm a fallout
Say your farewells and cut me out
Without a doubt, I'm the monster now
Ooh-Whoa-oh-oh Oh
Ooh-Whoa-oh-oh Oh
Ooh-Whoa-oh-oh I'm falling to the ground
Rip me to shreds, tear my heart out
I'll fade away into the crowd Oh
Track Name: CircusP & nostraightanswer - Patches (vocaloid version) [bonus track]
So I've come this far
Gliding through the stars
But no one ever said that this would phase me

And I'm quite alarmed
I didn't feel so harmed
Until the day it struck me down ruthlessly

Could it be that I
Have never been just quite
satisfied, inside?

Could it be that I
Have never realized
what's been on my mind?

Oh, I can tell you I will fight it
Never thought I'd need to right it
But maybe that's wrong of me

If maybe you won't mind it,
and you're willing to provide it,
will you have my back for me?

Ten thousand scars
with lies, broken hearts,
they cry to the stars,
wishing they were complete

With time they will know
this truth to be told,
that no one is whole
and we're always changing

It's fine to be lost
It comes at no cost
Whatever you do
it'll be the right thing

So don't be afraid
Just play your charades
When you feel okay,
the whole world is waiting.

I should take some time
To try and redefine
The way I see myself, the things I'm changing

Maybe one day soon
I will sing this tune
To remind myself that life keeps cycling

I can tell you I will get through
The pressure that's inside, too
And as far as I can see

I know I'll be stronger
I know I'll be brighter
And one day I'll take the lead

Ten thousand scars
with lies, broken hearts,
they cry to the stars,
wishing they were complete

With time they will know
this truth to be told,
that no one is whole
and we're always changing

It's fine to be lost
It comes at no cost
Whatever you do
it'll be the right thing

So don't be afraid
You'll be okay
Track Name: Different Seas (EmpathP remix) [bonus track]
To your side of the world
It happened in an instant
How could you have foreseen
my destructive intent

So call me rash
I didn't even give you a chance
My spontaneity was something
you said you loved in me

We're sailing towards different seas
And you're faster than I ever could be
You've set your sights on something
something that doesn't include me

So prepare for war
I'm charging at you full force

We're sailing towards different seas
So I'll be the first to scream

From my side of the world
You were already gone
Gradually building up
to a farewell song

I let it last
And gave it everything I had
But tenacity was something
You couldn't see in me

We're sailing towards different seas
And you're faster than I ever could be
You've set your sights on something
something that doesn't include me

So prepare for war
I'm charging at you full force

We're sailing towards different seas
So I'll be the one to leave
leave
Cut you out with no mercy
see
You're better off without me
Track Name: Castaway (nostraightanswer remix) [bonus track]
Show me where to go
Teach me what to say
Push me into the mold that
You think is safe
Don't leave me alone
Or I'll lose my way
'Cause to you
Nothing about me is OK

I'm losing, I'm falling
Reach out, grasp for my hand
Pull me back to dry land
I'm freezing, I'm bleeding
Try to stitch and patch me up
Looks like we're out of luck

Drifting off into the darkest depths
Pulling me down until there's nothing left
Open my eyes for shimmering lights
I won't put up a fight
To say 'Good-Bye'

Watch out, man overboard
Hurry and see the tragedy of me
What are you waiting for?
Come flock to see
The scene of my fatality

I'm sinking down to the sea
I've become a casualty

All the warning signs say
"I told you so"
But Mayday, Mayday
who could've known?
Crying out my shouts
Fall upon deaf ears
Preaching to me that
There's nothing to fear

Come with me, Fall in sync
Reach out, grasp for my hand
Rush into the deep end
I can't be what you need
Try to stitch and patch me up
It seems we're out of luck

Drifting off into the darkest depths
Pulling me down until there's nothing left
Open my eyes for shimmering lights
I won't put up a fight
To say 'Good-Bye'

Watch out, man overboard
Hurry and see the tragedy of me
What are you waiting for?
Come flock to see
The scene of my fatality

I'm sinking down to the sea
I've become a casualty

Drifting off into the darkest depths
Pulling me down until there's nothing left
Open my eyes for shimmering lights
I won't put up a fight
This is 'Good-Bye'

Watch out, man overboard
Hurry and see the tragedy of me
What are you waiting for?
Come flock to see
The scene of my fatality
Find me
Let me breathe in the sea
Oh god
I've become a casualty