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1.
Puzzle 03:57
On a night like this When the sun feels so far away When you can't get any rest And fear this feelings come to stay Take a big deep breath It'll be alright This isn't the end This is just one night Pick the pen up and write them down All the things that make you proud No matter how much that you see now There's way more waiting to be found Like a puzzle to be pieced together It's all about the process Like a mystery that lasts forever With every single clue there's something new Sometimes all it takes Is taking a step back When it's in your face It's hard to tell what you're looking at So Take a big deep breath It'll be alright This isn't the end This is just one night Pick the pen up and write them down All the things that make you proud No matter how much that you see now There's way more waiting to be found Like a puzzle to be pieced together It's all about the process Like a mystery that lasts forever With every single clue there's something new Don't be afraid of the cliché Just let it all out anyway The feelings you want discovered All of the words that you want heard Pick the pen up and write them down All the things that make you proud No matter how much that you see now There's way more waiting to be found Like a puzzle... Like a puzzle that goes on forever It's all about the process Like a mystery we'll solve together With every single clue there's something new And I'll go on this journey with you Turn the cloudy skies to blue And I will cheer on all you do I'll do the same for myself too
2.
When the sunlight found it's way to us Through the curtains, open just a touch Turning dark to day, The world starts to wake But we weren't asleep any way Ah Ah Ah I don't wanna say goodbye Ah Ah Ah Ask me if I'll stay the night Just one more time, one more day 'Cause I can't get you off the brain When everything is burning We're encased in silence When battles begin raging We're safe, just like this And I don't wanna leave you now I found, I found, I found you And I'm so lucky that I found I found, I found, I found you Don't let me go without you Don't let me Said, Don't let me go on without you Go on without you (x2) Hey, do you remember last summer When we visited the beach? How you said you've never seen the coast before? Well I'm glad it was with me Ah Ah Ah I wish that we had more time Ah Ah Ah Ask me if I'll miss my flight Just one more night, one more day 'Cause I can't get you off the brain While everyone is spinning We're still, in the quiet Whatever may come crashing We're safe, just like this And I don't wanna leave you now I found, I found, I found you And I'm so lucky that I found I found, I found, I found you Don't let me go without you Don't let me Said, Don't let me go on without you Go on without you (x2) I found, I found, I found you Don't let me go without you (x2)
3.
Uh oh, here we go It starts Up, down, 'til we fall apart Then you build it back Until I crack It's just too hard Uh oh, here we go You make One more promise that you break Expectations lost Is that the cost? Have we gone too far? 'Cuz where we are's not Where we were heading I know the way we go's got Questions we're dreading Yes "I do" but "Do you too?"'s caught Under our fighting Oh well, we gave our best shot Guess there's no place for us Because I'm falling out of love again I'm falling out of love again I'm falling out of love, but then You make me fall in love again, uh oh Uh oh, uh oh, uh oh Fall in love again x4 Uh oh, here we go It's clear That an end is drawing near If you're pulling back I'm gonna crack Why's it so hard? Uh on, here we go I miss Days when ignorance was bliss Aspirations lost Was that the cost? We've just gone too far 'Cuz where we are 's not Where we were heading Oh, I hope the way we go 's still not a lost cause Because I'm falling out of love again I'm falling out of love again I'm falling out of love, but then You make me fall in love again... Oh no, here we go Fall in love again Uh oh, uh oh, uh oh Fall in love again x2 It's not to be, we can't agree Fall out of love again So, make your plea there's no way we Can fall in love again It's not to be, we can't agree Fall out of love again So, make your plea don't see how we Could fall in love again It's not easy to let it be And fall in love again But if I see you smile at me I'll fall in love again Uh oh, uh oh, uh oh Fall in love again x4 Fall in love again x4
4.
Stark, the autumn winds came At the park, sending shivers down my spine Time to pack it up, picnic lunches and parasols Just in time for fall But I already miss the smell of sunscreen I already miss the sounds of a crowded beach When we'd walk along scenic paths I just wanna go back to that Take me back to summer Oh oh Ooh Whoa Oh With the shining sands Feeling like it's never gonna end Back to summer Oh oh Ooh Whoa Oh Catching the wave Just wanna dive in and get swept away Like a popsicle melting away or the slushy bits of my frappe It's all temporary, it'll come back next year What'd you say? I'm sorry I got water in my ear Oh, I miss the midnight chatting I already miss the sounds of your laughing, babe When we said we had each others backs I just wanna go back to that Take me back to summer Oh oh Ooh Whoa Oh With the shining sands Feeling like it's never gonna end Back to summer Oh oh Ooh Whoa Oh Catching the wave Just wanna dive in and get swept away Take me to the feeling of seaside Take me to the falling of love at first sight Bring me back to a time where there's sunshine Take me to the feeling that we will be alright Alright? Okay, Alright Uh huh, Alright And in June, we drove with the windows down then July, you showed me 'round your home town August we were regulars at the ice cream shop But September was when we broke off Take me back to summer Oh oh Ooh Whoa Oh With the shining sands Feeling like it's never gonna end Back to summer Oh oh Ooh Whoa Oh Catching the wave Just wanna dive in and get swept away Take me to the feeling of seaside Take me to the falling of love at first sight Bring me back to a time where there's sunshine Take me to the feeling that we will be alright Uh huh, Alright Back to summertime
5.
One Day 04:07
I could see your face in the clouds My heart crying out to hear your voice So clear, through the noise Right here I'll stay, my dear I'll wait for you to call my name One day... When the distance turns to miles When the rivers turn to oceans As the moments turn to "a while" I stand by my devotion Watch the summer turn to winter As the seasons come and go Know that I will be your shelter Waiting for you to come home I could see your face in the clouds My heart crying out to hear your voice So clear, through the noise Right here I'll stay, my dear I'll wait for you to call my name One day we'll fly away We'll fly a-way-/ If you can hear my song I pray you go on I will hold out my arms For you, for you-/, for you In the shadows of the galaxy I know you will find your way back to-/ me May you have the strengh to make it safe And once you circle back to this sky Just the two of us can fly, we'll fly away We'll fly a-way-/ If you can hear my song I pray you go on I will hold out my arms For you, for you-/, for you I could see your face in the clouds My heart crying out to hear your voice So clear, through the noise Right here I'll stay, my dear I'll wait for you to call my name One day we'll fly away We'll fly a-way-/ If you can hear my song I pray you go on I will hold out my arms For you, for you... If you can hear my song I pray you go on I will hold out my arms For you, for you-/, for you
6.
Captain 03:21
Anticipation is killing me Afraid of my responsibility With everyone's eyes locked onto me I cover mine up so I can't see Don't look at me Just let me breathe I know I'm not the man You want me to be No, I don't wanna steer the ship Lead us straight into the sun No, I don't wanna be captain I'd rather be the quiet one If we're shooting for the stars If I'm charting our course Somehow we'll end up on mars Shouting that "we're done for!" No, I don't wanna steer the ship I know when to fight and when to run Oh... I'm bracing for impact before it's begun A still in the air like a declaration To those who are scared: It's just all in your head Comforts I can't bear in this situation Don't follow me there, right into a dead end A state of zen I can't pretend I'm not hanging on by a thread No, I don't wanna steer the ship Demanding me to be the one No, I don't wanna be captain I'll pass it off to anyone If it's down to the wire If the sky is on fire If the situations dire I'm not who you require No, I don't wanna steer the ship I know when to fight and when to... When to fight and when to run But I don't wanna steer the ship, no And I don't wanna be captain though Oh, If we're shooting for the stars If I'm charting our course I will have to take us far No matter how unsure No, I don't wanna be captain But in the end, it has to be done "No! I don't wanna steer the ship!!" A coward's words and quitter's talk No, I don't wanna be captain But I guess I could give it a shot If we're sailing out to sea If we're shipping off to space If you're in a time of need I will be your saving grace "No, I don't wanna be captain!" Feels like such an afterthought No, I don't wanna I don't wanna but someone's gotta No, I don't wanna I don't wanna but someone's gotta "No, I don't wanna be captain!" Feels like such an afterthought
7.
Fall Away 03:49
Wise men say "Don't let it get to your head" but I'm all in And they all play games with their hearts from the start But I'm all in Yeah, When you're walking my way I lose my grip on reality Steadfast, I'm losing sleep Cascading waves collapsing over me Sweep me off of my feet So grab my hand 'cause I'm falling fast And when we land I'm the girl to ask you just one little question Don't let this fall away, fall away, fall away Shadows overlap across the sand As if there to ask us just one little question Don't let this fall away, fall away, fall away Like a lion lying in wait I'm hoping for a foolproof scenario You and I getting caught in the rain A fantasy that I can't let go But steadily I feel like I'm off beat With every chance I see I'm thrown into a mountain of debris Wake me from this day dream So grab my hand 'cause I'm falling fast And when we land I'm the girl to ask you just one little question Don't let this fall away, fall away, fall away Shadows overlap across the sand As if there to ask us just one little question Don't let this fall away, fall away, fall away Said you're gonna meet up with your friends But you cancelled those plans in the end, Whoa Said you gotta do something instead Then you reached for my hand and left, Whoa All eyes on the anomaly As we flee like a bad movie scene, Whoa Bolting past all the concrete, past all the buildings You stopped and you said to me... "With any luck, we're alone at last" Acting starstruck when the moment Hasn't had it's chance to set in Don't let this fall away, fall away yeah! So grab my hand 'cause I'm falling fast And when we land You're the first to ask me just one little question Don't let this fall away, fall away, fall away Shadows overlap across the sand As if there to ask us just one little question Don't let this fall away, fall away, fall away All of the signs are shouting "Cut to the chase!" No reason now for me to try and save face Take a deep breath like I'm going under Turn this into a nostalgic summer Shadows overlap across the sand As if there to ask us just one little question Don't let this fall away, fall away, fall away
8.
Detrimental 03:54
Yeah, Maki & Big Al Detrimental Alright, Let's go Come on turn the speakers up Just let the music drown it out I'm gonna pour another cup Make sure to get real loud 'Cause I just wanna da-a-ance you off my mind No cha-a-ance you'll see me cry Wanna da-a-ance, forget it all No pla-a-ans here after all With the sound of the bass I'll forget your face 'Cause it's all that I can see Let the beat of the drum make the pain go numb 'Cause to me you'll always be Detrimental Oh Oh Ooh whoa Oh Oh Oh Oh (Detrimental)x2 Detrimental Oh Oh Ooh whoa Oh Oh Oh Oh (Detrimental)x3 When I'm all alone staring at my phone You're who I want to call And It all sounds like noise I can't hear your voice You are my downfall 'Cause I just try to da-a-ance you off my mind No cha-a-ance I'll win this time Wanna da-a-ance, forget it all No cha-a-ance here after all With the sound of the bass I'll forget your face 'Cause it's all that I can see Let the beat of the drum make the pain go numb 'Cause to me you'll always be Detrimental Oh Oh Ooh whoa Oh Oh Oh Oh (Detrimental)x2 Detrimental Oh Oh Ooh whoa Oh Oh Oh Oh (Detrimental)x3 Your lips, your eyes are on my mind Can't hit rewind, it's all the time You're always around me it's like a curse Think it's better, then it gets worse Around every corner and every turn Yet still I never learn No beat can drop heavy enough To make this feel any less rough You're detrimental to all of me You're detrimental, you'll always be With the sound of the bass I'll forget your face 'Cause it's all that I can see Let the beat of the drum make the pain go numb 'Cause to me you'll always be Detrimental... With the sound of the bass I'll forget your face 'Cause it's all that I can see Let the beat of the drum make the pain go numb 'Cause to me you'll always be Detrimental Oh Oh Ooh whoa Oh Oh Oh Oh (Detrimental)x2 Detrimental Oh Oh Ooh whoa Oh Oh Oh Oh (Detrimental)x3
9.
Traffic lights look like stars on the horizon The rumble of cars take me farther than I've ever been When the moonlight passes through the city skyline Look into my eyes and wrap your hand around mine I don't want to be temporary, oh no Another passing ship, just a relationship I wanna see what we could be oh I wanna stay with you just for tonight Wanna stay with you See what we could do Wanna stay with you Ooh As raindrops fall on the concrete I feel the earth move beneath my feet And the rush of shallow waters Has far too much to offer But the risk is worth the prize, like every time What could we find? I don't want to be temporary, oh no Another passing ship, just a relationship I wanna see what we could be oh I wanna stay with you just for tonight Wanna stay with you See what we could do Wanna stay with you With you I don't want to be temporary, oh no Another passing ship, just a relationship I wanna see what we could be oh I wanna stay with you just for tonight Tonight, tonight yeah Wanna see what we could do Baby with you Ooh Ooh Oh I don't want to be temporary, oh no Another passing ship, just a relationship I wanna see what we could be oh I wanna stay with you just for tonight
10.
Come on down We are diamonds shining in moonlight Come on down I'll be waiting for you tonight 'Cause baby under all the glitz and glamour Gucci and Prada, you're what I'm after Baby after all, there's no one better No brand or designer can match your stature I know I don't need the gold, no I don't need the ice, no When you hold me so right No, I know I don't need the gold, no I don't need the ice, no When you treat me so right Treat me, Treat me When you treat me so right Yeah we're living that lavish life Champagne by the poolside, wrote our names in the sky Can't get enough Doesn't matter if it's for life (As) Long as you're by my side we'll keep chasing the sky Under all the glitz and glamour Dolce & Gabbana, you're what I'm after Baby after all, there's no one better No brand or designer can match your stature, No No nothing can, nothing makes me feel like you do Mercedes-Benz can't drive me the way that you do I know I don't need the gold, no I don't need the ice, no When you hold me so right No, I know I don't need the gold, no I don't need the ice, no When you treat me so right Treat me, Treat me When you treat me so right 'Cause baby under all the glitz and glamour Gucci and Prada, you're what I'm after Baby after all, there's no one better No brand or designer can match your stature I know I don't need the gold, no I don't need the ice, no When you hold me so right No, I know I don't need the gold, no I don't need the ice, no When you treat me so right Treat me, Treat me When you treat me so right
11.
marco polo 02:07
Couldn't even hide it, yeah Thought I was being so slick I was being double sided, yeah 2D, 4D, 8 dimensions divided Fight it no more I couldn't fight it no more So when you coming 'round again 'Cause you got me thinkin that I should just trash all that self improvement bullshit When you coming 'round again 'Cause you're always leaving Faster than the flash of my camera When we're together Marco, Polo Hey, where'd you go Marco, Polo Want you to hold me close Marco, Polo Hey, where'd you go Marco, Polo Come and give me one more dose And sometimes we'll go months without talking Then you text me like it were nothing I don't know where you've gone I don't know what you're on And I don't know how to stay mad for long 'Cause I can't hide it, yeah Thought I'm the one who was playing But you're the one in diamond, yeah 2D, 4D, 8 dimensions divided Blinded no more But I still want you more and more So when you coming 'round again 'Cause you got me thinkin 'bout Just what I'll drop the moment You call me, Baby When you coming 'round again 'Cause you're always leaving Starker than the crop of my camera When we're together Marco, Polo Hey, where'd you go Marco, Polo Want you to hold me close Marco, Polo Hey, where'd you go Marco, Polo Come and give me one more dose Marco, Polo Marco, Polo Marco, Polo Marco
12.
Intertwined 03:46
At the bottom, guess the jig is up Empty bottles, I'll stack them one by one All these problems adding up, I can't ignore no more Always craving, dreaming of before Always waiting, right behind the door It never opens, I can't see you anymore no more We used to be higher than high Without any worries on our minds We used to be living the life Thought that our fates were intertwined But now I'm just out far too late While calling out your name But now I'm just out of the way So you can't see my face I'm just like a mirror Honing on the worst that hurts to see And just like water I'll become the shape of what surrounds me Always shaking, shaking up the dirt Always prodding where it really hurts And when I came to, it was far too late to learn those words We used to be higher than high Without any worries on our minds We used to be living the life Thought that our fates were intertwined But now I'm just out far too late While calling out your name But now I'm just out of the way So you can't see my face Can't see my face We used to be higher than high Without any worries on our minds We used to be living the life Thought that our fates were intertwined But now I'm just out far too late While calling out your name But now I'm just out of the way So you can't see my face And now I'm just stuck at the bar Wondering if I'm on your mind And I don't know where you are But I think about you all the time We used to be higher than high Without any worries on our minds We used to be living the life Thought that our fates were intertwined were intertwined
13.
If you were stuck on an island What would you bring with you to make it through? Now, If the world ended in silence Nobody else but you, what would you do? 'Cause you can't rely on lies or hopeful skies no more Without a knock on the door, who are you putting up this act for? Better late than never, better bruised than sore But is that all you're good for? Don't wanna burst your bubble but I've been there, done the rounds Tore out my heart as I threw it into the crowd Then just like bridesmaids hoping to be next in line First one to catch will turn out perfectly fine Right as rain, coming up roses The saying goes A bouquet, all fine and dandy Or so it goes So take it from me, Kid You don't want to follow the path that I did So take it from me, Kid Don't heed the advice of a hypocrite 'Cause you can't rely on lies or hopeful skies no more Without a knock on the door, who are you putting up this act for? Better late than never, better bruised than sore But is that all you're good for? Is that all we're good for? Is that how they see me? Is that all I'm good for? For a shell, I got quite the heavy heart For all those who are at the very start In a meadow right by their parents car Don't step foot in the woods that tore me apart Don't wanna burst your bubble but I've been there, done the rounds Tore out my heart as I threw it into the crowd Then like a pack of wolves starving for a single bite All those who catch will turn out Right as rain Turn out right as rain Right as rain, coming up roses The saying goes A bouquet, all fine and dandy Or so it goes Right as rain, coming up roses The saying goes A bouquet, all fine and dandy Or so it goes
14.
I'm alright Been sitting 'round for ages Burning all the pages of all those years we wasted Yeah, I'm alright Been seeing you in faces of strangers when I'm faded Got me losing patience, yeah Tonight I'm falling under Tonight I'm telling everyone about ya Tonight I should know better But you got me feeling I'm caught in a web Without any options left What should I say first? You broke my heart to a thousand pieces, babe And it really hurt Your just a wolf feigning innocence, babe What should I say first 'bout all the stuff you pulled When we were together Us against the world What should I say first 'Cause it's such a mouthful Every single outburst When I was your girl What should I say first? It's alright Been feeling like a zombie Outside of my body If you could only see me now It's alright With no apology, I Think that it's about time To get what you deserve right now Tonight I'm falling under Tonight I'm telling everyone about ya Tonight I should know better But something just flipped Like a switch in my brain No longer trapped in a cage What should I say first? You should say it first. What should I say first 'bout all the stuff you pulled When we were together Us against the world What should I say first 'Cause it's such a mouthful Every single outburst When I was your girl What should I say first?
15.
Center Stage 03:44
Was always the type to trust far too easily Never could see what was right in front of me Baby, I let you play this out Let you mess around Cast in the part of a broken heart Now I, I won't cry another tear for you I know exactly what you're gonna do I'll be the one to bring the curtain down Before you can make your move Follow my lead and take a bow Think of me as you face the crowd To find the one you're after Your new lead actor Ready to take the center stage And you thought I'd never know, Oh-/ But you left their message on your phone You weren't discreet at all-/ Just waiting to fall farther down into this arc Now I, I won't cry another tear for you I know exactly what you're gonna do I'll be the one to bring the curtain down Before you can make your move "It was just like a movie, with everyone waiting for the big plot-twist" "And the award for best actor won't be going to you" Tear it up The script you had all thought out You'd recite when I found out, love Thought it'd be the talk of the town But not with you as the clown Follow my lead and take a bow Think of me as you face the crowd To find the one you're after Your new lead actor Ready to take you away Follow my lead and take a bow Think of me as you face the crowd To find the one you're after Your new lead actor Ready to take the center stage Maybe, baby, it's you not me Can't let it be, ready for center stage Maybe, baby, it's you not me Can't let it be, ready for center stage
16.
I'll grab a coffee, a magazine You like it super sweet, with extra cream I'll think about how long we've got Sorta feels we'll drift apart Be careful now, the coffee's hot Don't want to burn a broken heart And it's ok if it's the calm before the storm 'Cause if we break there won't be much there left to mourn And if someday I don't remember anymore Then it's okay if it's the calm before the Calm before the storm You're keeping focused, a bit busy Say it's just business, and that you miss me I notice how, how forced it sounds When you're acting your part Be careful now, don't overwork Don't wait to strain a broken heart And it's ok if it's the calm before the storm 'Cause if we break there won't be much there left to mourn And if someday I don't remember anymore Then it's okay if it's the calm before the Calm before the storm I'll grab a coffee, a magazine This time you told me you hate it sweet And it's ok if it's the calm before the storm 'Cause if we break there won't be much there left to mourn And if someday I don't remember anymore Then it's okay if it's the calm before the Calm before the storm
17.
anymore 03:41
I can't tell if I am fine Or if I'm just a bit afraid When I don't recognize The look of my own face Oh, I, I, I, I, won't let go of what I've lost I, I, I, I can't say no to this-/ I, Oh I have lost my mind, my mind I count the times, the times That I say I, My, Me, Mine I, I am not myself, myself And I can't tell who I am anymore Anymore, Anymore Nine, so one more time Put on the mask To five, It'll be alright Never take it off is all I ask Oh, I, I, I, I, won't let go of what I've lost I, I, I, I can't say no to this-/ I, Oh I have lost my mind, my mind I count the times, the times That I say I, My, Me, Mine I, I am not myself, myself And I can't tell who I am anymore Anymore, Anymore I've filed the missing personality report Maybe now I can figure out just what I'm looking for I've tried it all, y'know Every preset mold on my way to gold I've cried in every low Under every name other than my own I, Oh I have lost my mind, my mind I count the times, the times That I say I, My, Me, Mine I, I am not myself, myself And I can't tell who I am anymore Anymore, Anymore Anymore Whoa-/ I can't tell who I am anymore Anymore, Anymore
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enough 03:41
Oh, like a deer before headlights I cannot run away Like I'm an ocean with no sky Or any waves And I don't want to say I've lost my way, again So I'll play pretend 'Til the very end I won't wait To just get over it If just a little bit If I could just fake it And if you can't tell what this is about I've had enough and I want out y'see I'm not feeling good enough Thinking that I've had enough y'see I'm not feeling good enough And maybe enough is enough Maybe I've said all that needs to be said For you to say it's all in my head But like a key right next to a lock That much is obvious, detective Sherlock (lol) So I'll start to break my heart some more With each metaphor I'll shut every door It's an art to see how far I'll go and just how much ammo I've got to keep me low I know, You get it by now But I don't wanna hear a word outta your mouth y'see I'm not feeling good enough Thinking that I've had enough y'see I'm not feeling good enough And maybe enough is enough But I Can't get, can't get enough Can't get, can't get enough Can't get, can't get enough Can't get, can't get...
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Visions tease the land of Eden A shrouded path, beyond the tracks of salvation Hidden to men distressed by demons Appearing as close, in-front of your nose But out of comprehension For the pure of wit shall prevail With all the prosperity that entails But corruptions grasp among the frail Will keep them hunting the path to no avail What goes around comes around Naught may obscure in the shroud "What goes around comes around" Sounds so rich right about now Every conflict leaves its scar Stitches embroider the heart Once the seams all rip apart There'll be nothing left aside from dark Let those who carry the consequence Chase delusion on delusion without an end For neither heaven nor hell commend Purgatorys conscripted, defiled men Witness strong of will persevere See them carry forth without fear What goes around comes around All skeletons will be found "What goes around comes around" Sounds so holier-than-thou Every conflict leaves its scar Stitches embroider the heart Once the seams all rip apart Know that you're the one who left your mark Straightforward paths lead to circles Surrounding streetlamps turn to spirals What goes around comes around Naught may obscure in the shroud "What goes around comes around" Sounds so rich right about now What goes around comes around All skeletons will be found "What goes around comes around" Sounds so holier-than-thou Every conflict leaves its scar Stitches embroider the heart Once the seams all rip apart Know that you're the one who left your mark Straightforward paths lead to circles Surrounding streetlamps turn to spirals Straightforward paths lead to circles Surrounding streetlamps turn to spirals
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Barbed Wire 03:30
I must confess that I'm in distress Lush and fauna turned to desolation Convalesce from what's been repressed Turn this desperation to acclamation Moving on to follow the animal tracks Though it's not for long before I am two steps back No matter how far I feel I've run The trees are beyond the horizon Whenever I look for anyone I'm miles away from civilization Wrapped in barbed wire, barbed wire Piercing my tongue, coming out with my words Wrapped in barbed wire, barbed wire When all is done, I've become a desert Oh, carry me home Where do I go from here In the night I'm following Barbed wire, barbed wire When all is done, I've become nothing Here again, dry and dead Burn until there's nothing left Look at me, look and see, Past everything I used to be Here alone, clinging to the ghost of home In the light, through the breeze The oasis calls to- Meetings, partings, fallings, My feet walk a land that rain has forsaken Oh, I weep upon broken, barren earth From which nothing will ever sprout again [ It's within grasp, that mirage I'm chasing on the horizon Yet, no matter how far I walk, I only find myself back where I've begun ] No matter how far I feel I've run The trees are beyond the horizon Whenever I look for anyone I'm miles away from civilization Wrapped in barbed wire, barbed wire Piercing my tongue, coming out with my words Wrapped in barbed wire, barbed wire When all is done, I've become a desert Oh, carry me home Where do I go from here In the night I'm following Barbed wire, barbed wire When all is done, I've become nothing Nothing, I've become nothing Oh, I've become nothing ( Civilization past the horizon I walk a land that rain has forsaken Civilization past the horizon I circle back to my destination )
21.
Sabotage 03:14
I can hear the whispers as they fill the air Spilling secrets as if I'm supposed to care Hurry to the windows for the sun shale rise Prepare the barricade to shield our eyes From the normalcy seeping into me I think it's time to be something nobody needs 'Cause I've got a bad habit for sabotage Bared fangs and a broken clause At the junction of cerebrum fault Realize every night as I witness my habit for sabotage Broken fangs and bared claws At the parting of tear-drop falls Cross the line, dot the "i"s As I'm wasting my time Hmm... They say it'll all be fine Though they say that I've lost my mind Oh they say this, they say that No kidding, no take-backs While the earth is shaking, I'm meant to relax Complacency creeping over me I've forgotten how to breathe 'Cause I've got a bad habit for sabotage Picture frames of a lost cause Motor functions grinding to a halt Realize every night as I witness my Habit for sabotage Frames of a costly loss At functions, waiting for a nod Cross the line, dot the "i"s As I'm wasting my life With the fall of something pure and holy I'll devote my soul to just one thing only Habit for sabotage Bared fangs and a broken clause At the junction of cerebrum fault Realize every night as I witness... Blood run from my eyes Overdosed on bad vibes It's not anyone's fault but my own Gotta get outta here, out of fear I cannot atone Got a bad habit for sabotage Broken fangs and bared claws At the parting of tear-drop falls Cross the line, dot the "i"s As I'm wasting...
22.
Avert your eyes, turn away What you despise has a face And I can tell you, all that distain you feel? It feels the same Under the covers, over-the-counters It's taken shelter in all of your vice Encounters making you wonder Maybe it's justified? I won't tell you how to live Eat and eat 'til you get sick I won't tell you how to live Feed the habit like a bloated tick Misery loves company, baby Tragedy craves fresh meat, honey Misery loves company, baby Isn't it just a little bit funny? Can't use a knife or razor to cut it out This is the type of sin they pray about "Oh holy father, forgive this slaughter" Keep chasing after any chance of Hopeful encounters making you wonder Maybe no one will know? I won't tell you how to live Eat and eat 'til you get sick I won't tell you how to live Feed the habit like a bloated tick Misery loves company, baby Tragedy craves fresh meat, honey Misery loves company, baby Isn't it just a little bit funny? I won't tell you how to live 'Cause I've had enough of it I won't tell you how to live Let the stone be cast by he without sin Oh, I won't tell you how to live Eat and eat 'til you get sick I won't tell you how to live Feed the habit like a bloated tick I'm the same, I'm depraved I'm the pain that I crave I'm the same, I'm depraved I'm the pain that I crave Misery loves company, baby Tragedy craves fresh meat, honey Misery loves company, baby Isn't it just a little bit funny?
23.
I try to tell myself that I don't know how I got here Views of empty plains and empty skies strikingly clear Nothing withers nothing dies Nothing flourishes or thrives I try to tell myself that I don't know how I got here With no birds to sing their song And no wind to call the breeze Without your voice to break the silence I'm the war, I am the violence Just the noise of police sirens Calling forth from the horizon Oh, without anyone, anyone at all To stand and fight Without comparison, how can I recall What's wrong and right? (Don't pick a fight I'm here tonight To live my life From wrong and right) I start to walk across this land With my head facing down Muttering comforts to myself Without making a sound From the sights beyond my eyes I can't tell if I'm alive I'll keep on walking through this land With my head facing down In this stillness, I'm not calm With this stillness, I can't find peace Without your voice to break the silence I'm the war, I am the violence Just the noise of police sirens Calling forth from the horizon Oh, without anyone, anyone at all To stand and fight Without comparison, how can I recall What's wrong and right? Without dark, there is no light Without earth, there is no sky Without peace, there is no fight Without wrong, there is no right Without a beast to cause destruction or a love to show affection Without a past meant for reflection Calling forth from the horizon Oh, without anyone, anyone at all To stand and fight Without comparison, how can I recall What's wrong and right? I don't want to be alone I don't want to be on my own I don't want to live without a home Don't want to pretend that I don't know (Don't pick a fight I'm here tonight To live my life From wrong and right)
24.
Someone New 05:18
With the sunrise I felt a chill and saw winter's first signs Anticipation, Preparation for the ice cold Little did I know just what this forecast foretold Where I would go, where I would find home Something else has changed with the seasons As the leaves fall with the cold winds--/ And I remember the moment it began Guess it got a bit out of hand--/ 'Cause I can't stand out here waiting For someone to stop the hail And I can't lie in this coffin While holding the hammer and nail I can't expect you to save me To rescue these feelings I don't know what to do When you've become someone Someone new And it happens every few years With each cycle comes new fears I've been on dry land for so long I forgot about all the tears But I'm learning how to sail without a fleet How to stand on my own feet Looking up at the flash of stormy seas I feel the lightning course through me Something else has changed with the seasons As the lakes freeze, I'm an o-cean--/ And I remember the moment it began All that I couldn't un-der-stand--/ 'Cause I can't stand out here waiting For someone to stop the hail And I can't lie in this coffin While holding the hammer and nail I can't expect you to save me To rescue these feelings I don't know what to do When you've become someone Someone new (I don't recognize who you are) From your saccharine words rotting your teeth Tell me what am I supposed to believe When your smile seems taped to your cheeks What facade are you donning for me? Suspicion overcame me A resolution so bittersweet Something else has changed with the seasons As the leaves fall with the cold winds--/ And I remember the moment it began Guess it got a bit out of hand--/ 'Cause I can't stand out here waiting For someone to stop the hail And I can't lie in this coffin While holding the hammer and nail I can't expect you to save me To rescue these feelings Now I know what to do I will become someone... Someone who is used to the stillness of waters I'm renewed, I won't run away from my own solitude I'm the moon, the earth, the solstice, the cycle I'm renewed, I won't mourn about what's lost When I'm someone new I'm someone new--/ Ooh
25.
Orbit 03:56
Y'know there's this guy Who won't just shut up about me (Oh no no) Y'know there's this girl Who won't just leave me alone (Oh no no) Everywhere I go you seem to follow me (Oh no no) And when you're alone you only think of me Baby, we're on a burning rock Hurdling through the sky I think there's better ways For you to spend your time But you're spinning, spinning around me, babe You got it bad, what can I say Like a parasite, holding tight for dear life--/ But man, you're just not my type-/ Oh Oh Oh Oh-/ Orbit Oh Oh-/ Oh Orbit, Orbit Got you stuck in, stuck in orbit Oh Oh-/ Orbit Oh Oh-/ Oh Orbit, Orbit Got you stuck in, stuck in orbit Nah I don't think you're my type I don't think you're the kind of Guy to take me higher, Good-bye yeah It was fun for a time, yeah But you keep on coming back DMs tryna make me laugh Told you I was done with that I'm so tired of your :) Asking around, you're acting a clown I'm knocking you out of this fantasy (Oh no no) Open your eyes, girl You're magnetized, girl There's a whole wide world But you keep on... spinning, spinning around me, babe You got it bad, what can I say Like a parasite, holding tight for dear life--/ But man, you're just not my type-/ Oh Oh Oh Oh-/ Orbit Oh Oh-/ Oh Orbit, Orbit Got you stuck in, stuck in orbit Oh Oh-/ Orbit Oh Oh-/ Oh Orbit, Orbit Got you stuck in, stuck in orbit (You're no star in the sky, Boy Just a passing asteroid) [x4] Where I go oh oh You follow oh oh Let me spell it out N O, N O Where I go oh oh You follow oh oh Baby you should go Go on back home Na Nanana Na Nanana Yeah Nanana Na Nanana Yeah Stuck in, Stuck in Got you stuck in orbit [x2] You're an astronaut searching for an answer But I'm not gonna be your NASA Turn that rocketship around, 'cause This is me turning you down Put your hand on eject Think of what's next Hazard to guess Somebody else Got you tripping, falling for it Stuck in, Stuck in orbit
26.
Phoenix 04:00
The earth is charred around me The girl I am is not who I wish to be Set alight, I'll burn my past while the sun is dark A hollow flame in the shade of night Don't look away as the cinders spark my broken heart Watch as I rise from ash like a phoenix Like a phoenix, like a phoenix Watch as I fly through flame like a phoenix, eh I am breaking away, Let all the pain ricochet I feel my lungs filled with smoke Renewal comes once you have fallen far too low Yeah, Watch me bring the fire, Oh I'm taking it higher, you know When you see this charcoal heart reduced to ash Know that I'll forever last 'Cause I'm fighting, flying, riding on Burning, hurting never for long babe Pardon me as I burst into flames Don't look away, just... Watch as I rise from ash like a phoenix Like a phoenix, like a phoenix Watch as I fly through flame like a phoenix, eh I am breaking away Through all the embers of yesterday I will come out unfazed Watch as I fly through flame like a phoenix, eh I am breaking away, Let all the pain ricochet Life, Death Restart the end again From light to dark The night restarts my heart A Blaze, I'll be remade (I'll be renewed, I'll be reborn, I'll be revived, I will be)x4 Watch as I rise from ash like a phoenix Like a phoenix, like a phoenix Watch as I fly through flame like a phoenix, eh I am breaking away Watch as I rise from ash like a phoenix Like a phoenix, like a phoenix Watch as I fly through flame like a phoenix, eh I am breaking away Through all the embers of yesterday I will come out unfazed Watch as I fly through flame like a phoenix, eh I am breaking away, Let all the pain ricochet
27.
'Cause I'm in a sla-sla-sla-sla-slasher It's just like a sla-sla-sla-sla-slasher I'm caught in a chase scene With someone I can't see They're coming to find me They're coming to find me Ominous, I can hear my heart beat through my chest Darkness, I can feel the breathing on my neck And in a state of panic I'll lash out Manage to get out, leave everyone behind And I can hear the screams as they cry out Shouting their lungs out, I don't dare look behind I'm out of my mind I'm out of my mind... If just for a time I am free If just for a time I am me 'Cause I'm in a sla-sla-sla-sla-slasher It's just like a sla-sla-sla-sla-slasher The penultimate scene, a moment of reprieve The music swells as if to tell me That I'm in a sla-sla-sla-sla-slasher It's just like a sla-sla-sla-sla-slasher I'm at my finale, the darkness surrounds me It's all temporary It's all temporary Suddenly, I can feel the stillness around me But somethings off No, I can't see myself in the final scene So in a state of panic I'll lash out Follow the storm cloud, forfeit my alibi And I can hear the screams as they cry out Shouting their lungs out, as if to signify I've run out of time I've run out of time I'll change the life I portray I'll redefine my own face Now I'm in a slasher And I'll be the slasher, Ooh whoa oh 'Cause I'm in a sla-sla-sla-sla-slasher It's just like a sla-sla-sla-sla-slasher The penultimate scene, a moment of reprieve The music STOPS ... aaaaand scene! But I'm in a sla-sla-sla-sla-slasher It's just like a sla-sla-sla-sla-slasher Gotta have an encore The audience wants more! Becoming the monster Becoming the monster 'Cause I'm in a sla-sla-sla-sla-slasher It's just like a sla-sla-sla-sla-slasher I'm caught in a chase scene With someone I can't see They're coming to find me They're coming to find me
28.
it's 4 AM on a school night 100 calorie life Making sure the set ups just right, just right Burning every bridge that I grace Making sure that I feel pain Getting in a bitter headspace At this pace I'm ready to go I know your craving for a brand new low I'm ready to go To halt my growth and put on a show To you I'm better-better-better off worse You listen when it hurts too much to bear It's like I'm better-better-better off worse My happiness is never cared for Over-analyze my broken heart As the tempo kicks up a notch 'Cause I'm better-better-better off worse You only ever like me in this spiral of despair No, we must go back Go back to 'my' roots if you could call it that Go back to the hurdles that I've already passed Reliving them over and over And when there is closure We gotta go bolder I'm ready to go Because I know my woes are a product to be consumed Now you're running low I know you want something new But what else can I do? Oh, what else can I do? To you I'm better-better-better off worse You listen when it hurts too much to bear It's like I'm better-better-better off worse My happiness is never cared for Over-analyze my broken heart As the tempo kicks up a notch 'Cause I'm better-better-better off worse You only ever like me in this spiral of despair Better off recovering than recovered Better off hurting than to have hurt Better off in the dark than in the light Better off near death than be alright Bleed out for audience approval Tragic, but perfectly on schedule You think by now that we would have learned Behind every piece of art is a human to be heard But I'm still better-better-better off worse You listen when it hurts too much to bear It's like I'm better-better-better off worse Rejecting change to keep you there Because I'm better-better-better off worse You listen when I'm running out of time It's like I'm better-better-better off worse The mourning of one still alive I oversimplify the tears I cry While you tear them down line by line 'Cause I'm better-better-better off worse You only ever like me- Only ever like me when I wanna die

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released May 26, 2023

All songs written and produced by CircusP

Additional writing by EmpathP (track 3), ricedeity (track 20)

Additional production by Marvin Valentin (track 23)
Guitars by David Guthrie (tracks 7, 23), Bass by Tikaal (track 23)
Programming by Creuzer (track 23)

Visuals by Ibblescribbles

Additional visuals by Eddie (track 1), Socky (track 2), Robin (track 3), Lone (tracks 7, 16), Basil (track 8), Peedee (track 9), Crispy (tracks 10, 13), Livv (track 11), Juno (track 15), Sakon (track 18), Ibblescribbles (track 19), Mors (track 21), Meatgiri (track 22), Khee (track 23), Erumi (track, 25), ricedeity (tracks 27, 28)

Logo design by MMairo (tracks 1, 2, 3, 8, 11, 15, 16), Crispy (tracks 9, 10, 13, 22), ricediety (tracks 18, 21, 23, 27), riguruma (Track 25)
Video editing by ricedeity (tracks 1, 3, 7, 11, 15, 16, 18, 19, 21, 23, 27, 28), Crispy (tracks 2, 9, 10, 13, 22), Beebo (track 8), riguruma (track 25)
3D Modeling by False King (track 23)

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